Ahad, 30 September 2012

"Ben De Ra"



Secara rasminya, hari ini merupakan hari ke-4 aku menjejakan kaki ke Penang Hill@ Bukit Bendera...Alhamdulillah...
1. rombongan time aku sek rendah...(its quite sad story actually)
....ada dua tiga perkara yg aku xdapat lupa waktu rombongan ni
a) Pengorbanan Mak
b) kecoh sbb xcukup tempat duduk dlm bus
c) aku telah menyebakan anak sepupu aku terjatuh sampai berdarah kepala dia..

adeh...that was a worse trip in my life.....

2. bersama sahabat baik (deq na & farid kamil)
a)banyak perkara yg kami bualkn sepanjang perjalanan...dan yg penting trip ni adalah trip "rahsia" heheheh...
b)1st time dapat nek train bukit bendera yg baru

3.teman deq na & the gang with cik Rose too
hang out dengan Mak Deq Na for the 1st time....dan yg paling best...lost n found...sbb nk p bukit bendera pun leh sesat....hahahah(what a shameful..)

4. sun dah rise..bukan sun rise....
...kali ni semangat nk p sana kononnya nk g dapatkn view matahari naik...xp xda rezeki sbb matahari dh meninggi...(huhuh..aku yg bersalah sebenarnya..sbb terlewat dari jadual..adeh...)
a) kisah Ben De Ra...
..pada zmn dahulu adalah seorg mat salleh yg bernama "Ben De Ra" wat  rumah kat atas bukit ni...lalu diberikan namanya Bukit bendera..hahah(ringkas daripada bnyk versi lain)
b) menyelesaikn tanda tnya..
sebelum ni ada dua tiga tempat yg xsempat aku teroka...xp kali ni..Alhamdulillah dah teroka dh tempat yg menjadi tanda tnya...

Sabtu, 29 September 2012

to be close with Him!!!


it all about me n the creator...
it complected....
it hard to say in a word
cause im afraid it might turn wrong...
but this about my feelings...
....terasa jauh dengan-NYa...event i pray...i perform solah...
but...deep inside i couldn't feel it....
i still remember a phrase that said "Allah itu lebih dekat dari urat nadi di leher kita"
but..i not event blame anyone...just because i cant feel it..
i blaming my self..because im not become the true muslim...
i lie to my self...i disobey my Allah...
im putting my self into the flames
i know all the sin that i made
but..im still not repent
i keep do it again n again..
i swear that i'll not do it again....
but then...
it keep rolling....
event i pray...i did what ever people told me to do it in holding my self
from falling into the dark...
i know...im not strong enough....
there are too many things that seducing me...to be a part of flames
true is..
every single lie n mistake that i made
i know n realize...
that what i did is wrong...
but why n why...i cant be tough n strong...
this is the quest that i always use to ask my self
n...i already have an answer for it
but..same as usual
i keep digging
search for something....
something that i dont event know...
but only One thing
is looking for blessing. peace n harmony
to have a pure heart n mind
to be close with Him...